March Madness

March madness normaly conjures up images of basketball and all of that, that goes with it, but for me march madness is something entirely differnt. I am a diagnosed major depressive. I have been for 10 years starting this month. It was 10 years ago that I tried to take my life. march has always been a hard month for me since then, and for some reason this year it is being very difficult I am constanly remidned by the little things of events that happend 10 years ago and seem as if they happend only yesterday. I am very depressed this week and I am fighting for all I am worth to break out of it. I will not quit, I have a loving wife that will support me and is there for me for wich I am very very glad to have. I dont think she realizes how much she does mean to me. I cherish her more than she realizes. Ok i rambeld enough, got the conflicting thoughts out of my head .