Trollish Musings

Thursday, January 28, 2010

*Takes out a snow blower and blows the dust off this thing*

Its been quite a while since I posted on this thing and I think I am going to start it back up. Lets see what has happend since I posted. I am a father now, and he is almost 20 months old. Yeah I know time flies when you are having fun. Thats the biggest thing. Things are otherwise right were I left them. I work at the UPS Store and my wife still works for GE. We still live in Pennsylvania and still walk to work prety much every day.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I just watched an old eppisode of Major Dad, it was an eppisode dealing with the first gulf war. It touched my heart because we are still dealing with it over 17 year later.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Sleep?

Sleep, yet it eludes me again, I do not know what is wrong with me, this is the second night in a row that I am not sleeping well. It's only 1130 tonight, but I have a feeling it will be at least 2 before I go to bed. I admit i did take a short nap this afternoon (maybe a 1/2 hour) I hope this is not gona be a president for the rst of the year.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Magic happens

Magic happens, never let it be said that it does not happen. Yesterday I heard the most magical, and wonderful sound I have ever heard. I heard the heartbeat of me and my wifes unborn child. To me it was a moment of magic and mystery and finality saying that yes I am going to be a father. It is a lot take in, and I am ready to be a father. I am ready to help guide a new life through its journey and help mold it into the person he or she will be.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

I tempted fate

I tempted fate in my last post. I did everythign but say something I shouldnt have.

Since my last post, my father has passed away. He meant a great deal to me. I never told him how much untill it was to late. He influnced me in my life in so many ways. He was the one that always supported me no matter what. He was the one unkowingly influnced my decision to join the Navy. My earliest memories are of him coming home in uniform, of my mother and me waiting on the pier for him to come home, of him taking me on the ships and showing me around. That is what I will always remember about him. I still remember the smell of the old ships and everyonce in a while I will smell it around town somewhere and it remdins me of him. I do miss him so very much. To me it happend so very suddenly. I knew he had been having breathing problems over the last several years, and that he had been going to the ER on occasion but I never knew it was that bad. The week it happend, is still a blur, I got a call from mom on the sunday before he passed that he was in the hospital and it was bad, he had some surgery a couple of weeks prior for his shouldar and I thought it might be becuase of that. But it was not it was breathing problems. Somehting happend, he was not himself, he was very delerious did not know who Mom was and called my brother by my name. It was very scarey, being out here and not knowing. I called mom twice to 3 times a day to see what was happening, and it was doom and gloom everytime till thursday, thursday he had taken an upswing he was stronger and knew who mom was and seemed to be getting better. Friday was still more improvement, Saturday morning I was getting ready for work when I called, and he was gone. In a heartbeat he was gone, I was demolished, I did not know what to do, I think my lucky stars for Addey, she means so much to me, she got me through and I do not deserve such a wonderful careing person such as her. I called work and let them know what happend, and I took off, I went home and helped as best I could.

I helped take care of Mom and was there for her, I helped her clean out 2 rooms and get stuff ready for my brother to move back home. I took only a few things with me of my fathers, one is a little wooden figure of a sailor that sat on his dresser for as long as I could remember. Some of his clothing that fit me and some things of his from the Navy that we took to my In Laws to be framed, and one of his knives. There are a few more things that I do want, but mom is not ready to let them go yet, and I fully understand and acept that. The one thing that I do want more than anything is my fathers bosun pipe. It is so very special to me. When I was very young I remember he would bring it home after everytime he would go to sea and polish it up so very prety. As i grew older he would occaisonlay blow it in the mornings to wake me up to get ready for school.

I know I have been allover the place in the blog today, but I jsut had to get these thoguhts out, and share some memories of my father. RIP James R Brady I love you now and always, may I turn out to be 1/2 the father you were.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Is this year over yet?

Is this year over yet? I am so tired of it already, so much has happend and not all of it for the good. lets see I have had a death in the family due to cancer, Addeys Grandmother is fighitng cancer as well (she is a strong willed woman and I know she will beat it. 2 of my friends have been out due to injuries to their legs, falling airconditoners, friends looking for new jobs and getting screwed at new jobs, friends loosing loved ones, friends moving and a whole lot more of other miscelaneous bull crap. I am so ready for this year to be over and next year to begin. Well hope everyone else out there is doing better and always remember two things

1. It could always be worse

2. Never ever ask how things could be worse.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Wrapping My Mind around...

To me last week was very odd, On Friday Addey had come home from a trip and said she was late, late for what I thought and then it hit me, She was LATE!!!!!!!!!! On the way back home from the airport I kind of sat there in stuned silence, I know we had been trying but now it is deffinate. Well the rest of the weekend I spent trying my best to wrap my mind around the idea of that I am gona be a dad, till Weds morning she comes out of the shower and tells me things have started and she is no longer late. I fealt crushed, I had finaly put my mind around the idea that I was going to be a father. I feel I am ready to be a father and I know in the propper time I will be one. At least thats what I keep telling myself.